Taking stock of my life

[Albertosaurus Rex]

Thank you all for your words.

I am assuming, AR, that you live off-campus and go home after lectures etc? What happens during lunch breaks etc? Do you mix with others during break times eg lunch? Have you ever invited someone over with the view to further solidify a relationship?

Due to the structure of university courses, I often find myself with no familiar people during lectures, leaving me often alone at lunch breaks. I'm a very introvert person, and I find it very difficult to just strike up a conversation. That's why school worked for me: spending hours on end in the company of largely the same people every day was bound to get me into conversation with people. At university, things are much looser. This is why I make it a point to frequently visit the student club.

I am reminded of what the church friend I recently visted said to me: things work differently than in high school, you're not surrounded by your friends every day.

What always annoys me is when a bunch of people meet up and some can just make friends just like that. Mean while I'm like... "wait? How did that... Where'd everyone go?"

I totally recognize that. Some people have that gift to socialize with everybody.

And the friendships I do have are currently on a string. One friend has moved 5 hours away, one already lives an hour and a half away and wants to move to England, the other is facing possible jail time.

My goodness, that must be hard to live with.