Night or Day?

[Farseer]

Great question, redchild! I often find I wonder the same thing about you all!

I, too, am a person of the night but don't have the same problem as you do with the waking up hangover. Even if I did, there are cows to milk, a school day to begin teaching at 7am, a long drive to make etc...!

I will probably die young simply because I've burnt myself out too early. I often think of Fitz giving too much of himself to N'eyes, and therefore increasing the possibility of shortening his own life. I give too much of myself to others and, by this, I mean to others outside of my family and extra to family commitments and responsibilities. There are many times when I have discovered I have gone for three days and nights without very little sleep and, just as often, none at all.

I can only put it down to having such a heavy and on-going schedule and this is mostly due to having ridiculously high expectations of myself and not being able to say "no" to anyone or anything.

During the times when it does ease off somewhat, I have to fill it with something extra or else I'd die of boredom or lack of activity! In fact, when nobody asks or nobody demands, I offer myself like a turkey to Christmas lunch! Even reading is an activity that has to be jammed into the cracks of my day (much like you, I think?) and I can't think of too many times where I've been able to give myself over to the one task for any length of time...it's usually a case of juggling a couple (like now!).

Nuytsia once asked where I find the time to come on to thePlenty...I don't find the time, I steal it back for myself so that I can say I did SOMETHING for me that day, even if it's only a two sentence post that took me ten minutes to construct in the midst of other tasks.

If I'd read that of someone else a year ago, I'd have thought that theirs was a sad and lonely life but I know how full mine is and how wonderful it is to have you all to myself and to come on here and say 'Hey' at whatever the day or night...though usually night when any thinking is required!

Detonate a bomb to wake you, redchild? Sounds like my sons on school holidays!! I am a very light sleeper and it's something of a curse. My husband always complains about it but it does come in handy when you have babies and young children about the place (or not!).